Tuesday 24 January 2012

Bleak

Bleak is not the word for it.... dreadful!  I remember my blogger friend Andrea writing about her 2nd year in the country and it being 'tough'.  Well we have been here 2 years now and I am finding a lot of things - bleak and I know I have said it before at this time of the year, I feel that I may really suffer with this seasonal dysfunctional stuff that I have heard about.  I have felt a little homesick but nothing a quick chat to Mel doesn't sort out - is that a good thing or a bad thing?  She is my connection dare I say my anchor and without her I would be lost.  See I told you I was feeling bleak.  But there is so much good around me which in turn makes me feel ungrateful.  A loving husband that is trying really hard to be everything and more, healthy kids with attitude!  a new job (a bit boring and all that - but a job) a roof over my head!  See ungrateful!


I finished a Nicholas Sparks book today on my beloved kindle the best of me - for goodness sake I could have written the ending it was so predictable and I ended up sobbing about how 'sweet' it was.


Feel free to send me a klap!








7 comments:

  1. I get seasonal depression and I live over here.
    Would love to see more photos and hear about the new job, even if you pop me an email?

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  2. A klap? Never! A hug and I am going to try skype you RIGHT NOW! xxxx

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  3. Ai my friend...I can imagine winter in England cannot be easy...so as Stef says...some seasonal depression. Sending you a great big hug.

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  4. Allie says:

    Homesickness for places or people is the pits.
    And yes, it does pass but while its going on, its awful.
    So.
    No klap - just lots of sympathy.
    Its so good to hear that DH is being such a star!
    Hope your Skype call with Mel helped again.
    Lots of love
    XX

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  5. Emigrating is up there with the most stressful things one can go through..the first 2 years are the hardest..you question what you have done and given up.
    It does get easier.you will alway have Africa in your heart. Just realize how lucky you are to have the opportunity to give your kids more choices. A better life,safer. Hang in there..we have been here 14 years. Love it but still miss home..and when I see how happy my boys are, how settled they are we realize we have made the right decision..when I walk my dogs in the park early in the morning or late at night I feel safe. This is how I want to live..my husband is my sounding board..my rock..my best friend..my everything...that also gets me through the down times..it's the challenges that make us stronger..it's character building. ....do I have character?

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